The history of a vampire who met a young boy......

This story begins in 1979 when a boy of the name Derrick Howard was born into a harsh world, for some years he was taught the ways of magik and the darker things of life. At the age of five he lost his mentor, second mother..... his first love. Her name was Juanita Owens his grandmothers sister who was a grand aunt. Now his grandmother who practiced Voodoo no longer had the power to continue due to an unknown action some years ago and was changed ever since. There was one other person in his family that understood him and that was his grandfather, now the reason i mention these family members because these are the only two that were in his life that influenced him to be the person I found. But moving forward at the age of six he discovered a friend who others thought was an imaginary friend...... but was a spirit that was drawn to him from the magik. He was warned of something that would change his life forever but was ignored. About two years after that he was introduced and seduced but a vampire that was near his home. Now that night the female that he met was much older and wanted someone to feed from, but when this happen it awakened me and i took a part of the feeding. This caused something inside the soul to allow his awakening. Something that did change our lives forever. Growing up after that was different and scary because we did not know how it would effect such a young body but the mind was very strong thanks to the teachings of his grand aunt, much studying and practice was done in the early stages if his teenage life and that was when Tai chi was introduced which gave use the understanding of energy manipulation and Psi feedings (this was done because blood was not easy to get for a teenager )

After graduating High School the Tai chi was no more and the practice had to stop (tai chi is hard to find in the JErsey City area) This is when we found the Company or house known (use to be known) as Sabretooth where we ment fahter Vincent where my first set of fangs were made. I would soon because a familiar with his family and learn more about what and who i was but because my thoughts and beliefs were different then theirs i would find myself feeling like an outcast (I was not into all the parties that were thrown) At this point I felt that I needed to find a kindred soul that i could share mylife with (saddly this is still yet to be found) I than broke away and decided to live a mundane life but i could not ignore my true self and started to study and understand more, there were many questions that I wanted answered so by reading i found some. I was reunited with an only friend who had grew up very well and wanted to understand more of what was happen in her life so i helped her find her innerself and she was awakened at this point. She believes that i turned her but I saw it in her and just simple took her hand to guide her. I than returned to Sabretooth but had changed dramatically. I than found out things that turned my stomach and found myself drifting because of the relationship i was in. But during this time frame that I was reunited with my friend i was a good feeling almost like being with family but it didnt last long. As I stated the relationship i was in seem to keep me from my friends/family so i disappeared YET again.

(Please forgive me if this is boring but I do have a reason coming at some point)

So at this point i have moved and life a happy simple life but yet i have not tried to hide my true self i still study and feed, but the girl i was in love with and lived with I also was able to feel from her energy but she and I did not make it and found myself moving back home after 2 years and on the night of my birthday (Devils nite/October 30) I ran into my old friend and again she has matured who invited me to a gathering with the "family" which i gladly accepted. After that I was part of the family for about a year when for the last time i walked away from but that was because of the changes i saw from my friend and the family i thought i would because a part of. Now at this point this is were I have stood for many years yerning to have friend who I can feel that share the same beliefs i do but do not live to just party and become part of sex parties

Saddly over the years I have lost alot of my powers and as was stated in another post it seems that there is some sort of seal that is limiting my self which i must get to the bottom of because my life is falling apart. I have not felt so lost in my life before. It is strange that I am still who I am but powerless with no real "others" to talk to and call on. I have lost most of my friends because of the lack of understanding, most feel that i was to "strange" to be around. My story has no ending but i would like to change my road, I hope to find my ankh , my energy and the path once again. I hope that I can rid myself of this alone feeling and have friends to call on again in my life but that are like myself. I am sorry for this story I have left things out to limit the typing and reading but please feel free to ask what ever you wish.

Thank you all for reading and taking the time to know me a bit

it wasn't boring.... Upon reading it I was like watching a movie though... Its almost 17 days passed after you posed it. Have you already found your energy? I Wish you luck... They said true friends are hard to find but f u encounter a person who accept who u really r without hesitation then don't let him/her go as I've said true friends are hard to find...

You are so right about friends and someone you truly love
I believe i see my energy but i am still not fully there

It was very interesting to read your lifestory, I hope you find your energy.

Hi, Damion! Its a sad story but I believe when something goes really really bad its because you are so close to found what you are looking for, so you have to keep fighting harder, you must be very close to the finish line. Think positive, look inside you what make you stronger, think about all that is good inside you. Right now I have a few from your story: Courage ( you were brave talking how you feel), sincerity, mature and a kind heart. See!! And theres a lot of people who will understand you here. Good luck and take care

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The heart that is soonest awake to the flowers
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Thank you, i needed to read something like that

im glad it help you. like i said before be positive and think of everything good that you have inside you

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The heart that is soonest awake to the flowers
is always the first to be touch'd by the thorns

Time finds a way to make things work out.
Speaking of which, it's been about two months since this was posted.

Update? Are things getting better, still the same? I hope you've found some happiness..

This had been a very interesting story. I am in hopes that though this site is not an physical for of having friend that you have found some peace with in here. There will come a day when you will find that perfect some one. You may be even in your thirties, fourties, or older but one day you will. All things takes time and though it is a hard road to travle it's well worth the weight.

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Immortal we may be but still not out of reach from deaths hand

Whenever something bad happens something good will happens no matter what

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