I Need help.....


I really do need help, i really dont have anyone to turn to and i almost lost it with my fiancee and my youngest step son...... I really dont know how to explain it, I know what it is but i dont understand the emotional imbalance that follows with it, we went to see ratatouille tonight at my local park (Movie under the stars) he was just being a 4 year old but i lost it, I tried my best to keep the other part in. My fiancee being the best she can be i just yelled out i cant do this, some how i thought it was being around kids but after i hug him and my fiancee good night i started to taste something in the air, I started thinking the violent thoughts (that have been in my mind for weeks) the sight of blood was in my mind hard. I knew than I was in a blind lust for blood.... to be honest I havent fed in some time and the psi feeding is not working any more i need to taste flesh, I need blood..... i have talked to my fiancee about this many times but i dont want to force her to be a donor if she is not ready. I just dont understand that violence , the emotional craziness

I need to get this under control

If I seem harsh hun sorry. Go get you some pig blood. If it's flesh have well night make out with you love one and then go to the frigde and drink the blood. That way you don't snap at those you shouldn't.
As for bad thoughts we all have them.

__________________
We are the eyes that feel heavey on your shoulders

I'm sorry but blood only really works if it's fresh. If drinking blood from the fridge works for you then you probably don't really need and and only managed to develop a blood addiction rather than having the need for the life force within it. If your used to psy feeding, and it's suddenly not working for you, you may need to try a different method of psy feeding. You are likely used to surface feeding. Try deep feeding and see if that helps any. Here's the link to the thread on deep feeding if you need it. Deep Feeding

__________________
Ashes to Ashes, Dust to Dust, We are Tested in Fire, And are Forged Anew.
http://a467.ac-images.myspacecdn.com...ed7395135a.jpg

__________________

I am a ninja
Defending others lives
Sacrificing my blood
Keeping you safe
I am a protector

Have you every ate something so much that eventually you get sick of it. Well this is a common case for psy vamps and it makes them want to revert to blood as like a new flavor. I recommend drinking blood a couple of time to balance your pranic pallet. Real living blood from a mammal will be the only thing that works. If you want to phychically feed try feeding off different emotions ordeep feed for a general flavor. It would help if you could see auras as all auras really are is the body getting rid of excess pranic energy then just look for different colors and see what you like.