What if someone was lets say bitten by a vampire but was not willing?
Also if the person who was bitten was not awakened fully due to extreme problems? What would the person bite have to do to turn fully all the way if they want to and understand the very codex of the rules and the pros and con as well?

if you can try to get back to me
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-celeste

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Why bother? Were All the Same Outside,But On The Inside I Am Death

I'm sorry, I don't think I quite understand what question you're asking. Are you asking what you need to do to continue into awakening fully? If so, what has caused your awakening to be held back? I'll help any way I can, I just didn't understand your post is all, sorry.

yes,thats pretty much what im asking

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Why bother? Were All the Same Outside,But On The Inside I Am Death

Okay, so first we need to know what caused the awakening to stop, or what's holding it back. Usually when an awakening begins it is often detrimental to a person's health to put it on hold, but for reasons such as with my dragon awakening it sometimes has to be done. But for me with my dragon awakening I hadn't begun my awakening, so for someone to stop an awakening as it starts could be harmful to you. So, let me know whether it was stopped or whether it's being put on hold before you can begin the awakening, and who put your awakening in such a state. I'll know what to do then.

Well honestly i don't know what happen it was all of a sudden like a heard a train stop, i got sick,but i don't know what might be holding it back

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Why bother? Were All the Same Outside,But On The Inside I Am Death

Okay, the train-stopping thing, that's when your awakening stopped?

yea, and that day i got really sick in school,i had to sit in the nurses office till two minutes till the bell rang,and i had to hold my guts in,cuz it felt like someone was trying to rip them and my lungs out

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Why bother? Were All the Same Outside,But On The Inside I Am Death

Okay, explain to me how you're awakening began, then compare that to how that train-stopping sensation changed that to make you think it had stopped your awakening. Then move on to how you felt afterwards until as far as you can remember. No detail is too small. Sorry for all the questions, I just have to investigate all possilities, and to do that I need all the details you can give me.

well it started when(i know this sounds tacky but hey) when i had not just my first taste of blood but,emtional energy,it was like riding in the waves in cali. Several day after i felt good, until a few friend get sad, then i would get to the point where i thought i would be sick. When it felt like a train-stopping sensation it was when i thought i saw this one person(i think i mention in a tread somewhere here)i was in school the next day and i was doing good till 7 th period, then out of no where felt like someone had tried to rip my guts and lungs out.And for that past weeks up until now i felt weaker than usual and i came home and slept the entire day.so yea its been like that for half a year now.so yea im not in the best of moods

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Why bother? Were All the Same Outside,But On The Inside I Am Death

Okay, okay, the pieces are falling into place, just need to think on it for a minute. It sounds as though you were attacked by something or someone, either spiritual or physically incarnate. I'd say the gut-ripping sensation was the main attack. I fear they might have tried to steal from you the part that was vampiric, or whatever you are awakening into. The ripping sensation was more than likely them ripping that from you. You need to take a look at yourself. Can you see your own spirit, look at yourself from outside in? The low level energy state you've been living in could be due to a damage to your spirit, which if you've studied the Kheprian order you'd know that that is how they became vampiric psychically, due to an alteration to their spirit. Have you tried to take in energy since that occured? Do you have any ability to manipulate energy left to you?