Draven

cool story!! Thanks for sharing!!! I feel ya on the paleness so I know what your talking about! But I bet your girl appreciated your effort to see her!! love and hugs xoox

Thanks for the compliment by the way, D - I'm sorry, I was so tired last night I missed it

I'm not sure if I answered your question?

Perhaps I should say that on the whole, the things I discovered so far I can live with and do not mind much, even the negatives. Compared to the emotional loss and pain of love, all this seems like almost nothing.

I know that sounds like bohemian romanticism at its worst, but that's how I feel.

Val

Hi Draven

That's an interesting question to ask and I'm not sure how to answer.

In terms of the thirst it is frustrating and hurtful, but exciting at the same time. I have discovered flexibility in my ability as a hybrid to compensate with energy, which I feel trickling into me constantly and with occasional deliberate topping up. meditation is also helping me to control and live with it.

In terms of emotional aspects, everything is clear and I feel better about myself. But there is something gnawing at me, something I'm sure you know about me already - the broken heart that cripples me. It's love you see. I know it is there like a gravity or the wind, but I don't believe in it anymore. It's salt in the wound. I wonder sometimes how damaged I am, in every possible sense of the word. I cannot attribute this feeling to my awakening or my nature as a Vampire though.

I still like the line Real Vampires Don't Sparkle though, it cracks me up. It also reminds me of something from my life actually that would almost be contrary to the statement.

Curious now What does it remind you of? PS. I realize this is a late reply, I just unfortuanly didn't have access to online for the past few days! Hugs hun HOPE all is well with you! xoxoox

well all in all.....i still have to creep through the shadows but i'll be getting to the bottom of everything

What have you been up to lately?

Jester God seems kind of forced compaired to your normal stuff. Keep working at it though Yeah I still talk to them when we're actually online at the same time. Which isn't often lately. The whole thing was just a bunch of drama really. Power trips (not from them) and all that. Its better explained outside of VF though

I know how that is. I'm glad you're back. I've missed seeing you around.

Hello darling, how have you been?