God! I hate his guts! He's cheap, hes rude and hes an all around b*tch. He can't give up 10 bucks. Just 10 freakin bucks! Its not like I'm asking for $10,000! Hes just like the rest of my family...b*tches, son of a b*tches and everything else you can think of. He laughs at everything I do and say. And he laughs harder when its serious! When he found out I cut myself all he did was buy some temorary tattoos and forgot about it...gee! thats good parenting! I feel like I was adopted...you know what I mean? They treat the adopted one like crap and the other one is a little spoiled brat! My sister gets everything she wants. If she wants to go somewhere my dad wants me to go with her! And if I say no he makes me go. WTH? He treats me like a 12 year old! And if she wants to computer she gets it right off the bat. But what about me? NOOOO. I have to wait 3 freakin hours! Like with iTunes gift cards...I would buy a $15 card with my own money, money that I earned and found and I have to share the damn card with her even though she dident even pay for it! And with an iPod charger. I gave my dad $10 so I could use it. But a few days later, my sister got to use it without paying $10! We made a freakin deal. It was a waste of money! Jesus christ. Idc if you're on my dads side idc if you dissagree with me on anything...I just wanted to get this out. My personal feelings. And if I can't do this on here than SORRY!!!!

I am on your side. How unfortunate you are to have to deal with that every day.

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The only god that I seem to follow is the dollar. It defines what I can and cannot have. It provides security and brings me food, granted if I can perform the ritual of "buying". High-priests of this god demand that I work in the temple so that way I am contributing to the institution as whole. I'm working at accomplishing training so that way I can then accept greater tutelage and move up in the hierarchy.

---- And that folks, is a good analogy for our society, IMHO.

Okay, give me their names and social security numbers and I'll bomb the hell out of them. Otherwise i can just see how much it'll take to have them killed. I swear, people like them deserve to be taken the fuck out of the fucking gene pool. I'm so sorry, hun, that you have to go through this shit. It's not fair and isn't right. I wish I could say something else to make you feel better, but I know from experience that only time away from that situation will help. How old are you, can you get out of there soon?

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Lol. Thanks Tobias and I agree. I am 15 and I will get out of here in 3 or 4 years...if this stuff doesent distract me from school...

Aye, wow, I actually thought you were in your 20s at least, you seem so mature for your age, lol. Much more mature than some people I know in real life, anyway. Again, I'm sorry you have to go through this shit. Have you ever tried telling them how you feel, that you feel neglected when it comes to your sister? That what they do is bullshit?

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No, because it wouldent be worth it. He'd just continue sitting on his ass watching TV. And then when he starts listening hed start argueing. And then when I get on the topic about my sister, she would hear about this and then she would start yelling at me along with my dad. My mom wouldent be any help because shes the only one who gets off her ass and works. My dad is a manager for a magazine company and all he does is sit on his ass and makes calls for some $36 an hour. And my mom works on the bindary (at the same place) for $11 an hour. And when shes home she works outside and cleans the house, while my dad watches TV. And lol. I don't think that I'm that mature. Smart yeah but not mature. Lol.

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Don't let him influence your life. Take a metaphorical step back and ignore the fact that he' being a bastard. Take up a new hobby and enjoy yourself instead of getting worked up over him. (: And as for self-harm, i'd seriously consider stopping. You've probably heard this a million times, but it's so, so bad for you. And it scars. And you don't want to reminder of it on your body forever. There are better ways to vent stress. Try throwing a lava lamp out of your window. It worked for me. (: Or, if you love your lava lamp too much, throw fruit out of the window. It's theraputic - I promise. ^__^


OOOH &I haven't talked to you in aaaaages. But i'm just about to mail, btr. (:

I know this come a little late, but while I was reading you answ arounder my question about your age. I think you cut yourself to attract their attention and you got dissapointed when it fell. Please, dont do that, theres other way for this. I used to think that mine didnt care I run away spend 3-4 hours got scared came back and they even noticed. I was around your age. With your money, use it without saying it. And I think you are probably a very strong & independant girl and probably your parents think that you can handle things more than your sister because they see you like that (strong & independant). I find out that my parents thought like that when I was already an adult and I was talking to my mother. I used to fight a lot with them and take down the entire world if it cross my way.Your father is being cheap, bt we cannot change that. Try to be polite (even if you have to fake it) a few days and later ask for something or do something that they dont expect from you (something sweet of course : be nice with your sister or I dont know you will have to think of that). Work a way around things, thats how the world works.

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